Looking forward to 2010!

Hi there, friends and fellow stitchy folk! 
I want to wish you a very Happy New Year! I hope that all of you who read my musings had a wonderful and MERRY CHRISTMAS, too.

 I am looking forward with anticipation that this coming year will be filled with GREAT things. 
Do you make resolutions?  I do but rarely do I keep them.  This year, I only have 2.
1.  To get healthy.
2.  To stay positive and not be so afraid.
This year, I VOW (and you are my witnesses) that I will get healthy.  That means to continue my Weight Watchers journey to finally lose the 35 pounds.  I will eat healthy but not deprive myself.  I will exercise and that doesn't mean only to walk on the treadmill which can get mighty boring. 

The next thing that I VOW to be is more positive.  If you haven't guessed by now, my glass is pretty much 1/2 empty most of the time. My life is tinged with blue most of the time.  And I am a complainer.  I've worked on the complaining part and I can say that I do less of it but I'm not exactly where I'd like to be.  I want to look at my glass and say, "Hey, it's 1/2 full!  I've decided to stay away from those folks who suck the life right out of you.  (This is going to be hard cause I spend most of my waking hours at work with someone who is SO negative, it's contagious.  But, I'm going to do my best not to let him get me down.)  I'm not saying I'm going to be Polly Polly-anna but I am going to be less Chicken-Little.  I want to be more open and embrace change and new things.  Look for the good in people, situations, LIFE.  Stop burying my head in the ground.

Have faith.

I think that these lyrics by Nickleback sum it up perfectly for me:
If Today Was Your Last Day

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?

What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

2009 was a year of change for me. I had big changes in my life and I came to terms with stuff I tried to forget about.  A lot of it I didn't like but I had to face it.  I had wonderful things happen, a lot of FABULOUS times, proud times (the wedding, the commissioning, a promotion) but I was AFRAID.  Afraid to lose my job, afraid of losing 2/3 of our income when the DH retires and (OMGosh) what if, what if he can't find a teaching job in September?!  Afraid now that the 2nd Lieutenant is married, he would grow away from me (I know, weird...)   Facing my financials, making peace with my half finished wreck of a house.  Working on forgiving my self and the people that hurt me.  Realizing that it will all get done in God's time and not MINE.

So anyway, I apologize for the post cause it's rambling.  It helps to write it down and then be accountable.

And for stitchy things...I'm going to work on my WIPS and stitch from my stash.  I am not rotating but will work on whatever I want at any given time.
 I will blog more often and guess what!  I got a new point and shoot camera for Christmas (and a KINDLE, oh it's so wicked!) which means that I have NO excuse for not posting pictures.

Anyway,  out with 2009 and in with 2010!

I wish you all the most blessed, abundant, love-filled New Year!


It's going to be a GREAT year!