Have you ever just stepped back and looked at the big picture? Recently, I've been doing just that. Lately, I've been very unsettled and I am finding it hard to concentrate on one thing, stay the course with my weight loss efforts and in general, stay in control of the myriad of things that I have to do at work, home and personally.
I've found out there is much that I can not control. And being the control freak that I am, that's frustrating.
Take my stitching, for example. I feel like I am on a swing concerning my stitching. I want all my stash, I don't want it all. I need this chart and fiber, why did I spend the $$$ on THAT! I have 4 active Wips, I really should only work on one thing at a time. See what I mean? Stitching mood swings. I am never satisfied. This is quite maddening. And I am now on a quest for a root cause. Is it generated out of frustration that I can not stitch everything that I want? Is it because I think I can stitch everything and can't find a plan or the time to stitch it all? Is is because I never finish anything and when I do it's years since I began that project? Am I drawn to everyone's stitching and want to keep up? I stitch SLOW. I am limited to the amount of time I can spend stitching right now. Do I just acknowledge my limitations, stay away from everyone's blogs and photo albums and stitch in a vacuum? At any rate, all this adds up to frustration and now, I feel like I am where I am with everything else - things are so out of control so I just don't know where to begin. Please give me some *whine* with my cheese, please!
Otherwise, I am going to participate in an SAL with Danielle. We are going to stitch Merry Cox's *Shaker Spool Holder*. I am intrigued with it. It doesn't look like it's too difficult to stitch, I am a little concerned about the finishing. I need to go to the LNS for supplies (aww-shopping, what a hardship)!
I worked on Prairie Year last night. I dutifully stitched my 2 strands of red into February and remarkably, I only have one more heart to stitch and that motif is finished. Also, April's motif is just about done now. I have a bit of the rabbit's hind leg to stitch and I need to finish up the flowers and I will be done with April. Ahead of schedule. Hey, how'd THAT happen! I really love this piece. It's so teeny tiny over one. I bet that each motif is about 2 inches square. It was a nice piece to start my over one adventure.
So rant over.
Have a wonderful Easter and Passover. May the bunny leave much chocolate for you.